I thought it was bizarre that Suzi left without any clear instructions or plan should I dialate more or something unexpected happen. This was my first time being pregnant, our first baby, our first time with this whole experience and we were both a little nervous and left unsure of what to expect after she left. I trusted Suzi when she told me she would be there to support me and be there to help me work through contractions. Now looking back I wish I did not put so much trust into another individual i barely knew- and going forward I will not make it a point to empower and prepare myself even more.
I quickly dialated about an hour after Suzi left, I started to panic, some complications arose ( that I now believe were about 90% stress and onset anxiety induced), but Suzi was the last thing I was going to worry about at this point- this was the birth of our first child- we are not responsible for Suzi's actions, which I found to be pretty selfish. From there my labor and delivery were very stressful, I was prepped for an emergency C-Section- the uncertainity of the whole thing was absoutley terrifying- but through the Grace of God, my husband, and my mother- I was able to persevere and safely deliver our baby.
After giving birth, visiting our baby in the NICU and resting- I ased my husband if Suzi had ever reached out to him. He then showed me the series of texts in which Suzi was scolding him for not letting her know when I reached a 7 and yada yada. She sent paragrpah's upon paragraph's berating and blaming us for her not being there and blaming my sweet husband for the lack of Her presence during the birth.
-TB
December 28, 2019
Knitted Together
Birth Fee: $1500